I love Target

Last night I watched the season premiere of Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition. I love shows like that and Biggest Loser, I find them so inspiring and exciting. Sometimes I feel like my weight struggles don't "count" because I have less to lose. But I have a lot of the same issues people on these shows have, I'm just lucky enough to have a body that seems to have an "off" button when it comes to gaining weight. It's pretty difficult for me to get above 160-170 lbs (and that's a weight that looks awful on me).

Anyway, today is a rest day, which is a good thing because it is broiling hot out! I do not do well in the heat. I'm going to try to get up at 6 AM tomorrow to run, hopefully that will help me beat it. I'm a little worried about being on the Canal alone that early, though. My knees are feeling OK today - looks like I probably need a rest day in between each run. I'm a little worried about what's going to happen as my mileage starts to go up for marathon training, though. I think I'll head to a running store sometime soon to see if I need better shoes. I'm running in Nike Frees, which I really love because they're comfortable and cute. But they are minimalist shoes, and I think that may be what's messing up my knees. I don't have great foot structure.

As I've mentioned before, I am down in DC to help my parents take care of my sister. I've been down here since it was cold out, and as a result I don't have any warm weather clothes, just 2 pairs of jeans and some t-shirts. I got way too hot today to take it anymore, so my mom took me on a mini Old Navy and Target shopping spree. I ended up feeling pretty bad about myself at Old Navy - I thought I had lost enough weight to be down to a size 6, but the size 8 shorts were fairly tight on me and I wasn't very happy about the way my legs looked. I had been thinking I was nearing the end of actively trying to lose weight, but after seeing how I actually look I feel like I have a long way to go. It's funny how we can fool ourselves with old clothes - that's often how I actually let myself get fat. I don't wash my jeans and convince myself that since they still "fit" I haven't gained that much weight.

Hopefully I'll be able to do a weigh-in tomorrow and see where I really am.